sometimes i dont understand why You let so many things happen to me this year..
Just when i thought things are okay and i can run things the way it should be, something comes and shake it up.
I thank God i was safe today. It's true in a way it was my mistake and i was proud that i took the responsibilty like a man but i know i could have been extra careful.
I know i didnt want it to happen. Same goes to everything before that for the past 12 months. I didnt want anything happen. I didnt want to let her go but You let it be. I didnt want my car to get into many problems but You let it be. I didnt want to be busy but You let it be.
Sometimes i wonder what are You doing with my life. I m pretty broken inside because of all that.
I wanted people to encourage me instead i have people laughing at me, scolding me, mocking me and even tell me i should give up everything, from my project to working fulltime.
I have cry so much tears and worry till i drained out. how much further i can be pushed?
I m tested so much till sometimes i thought i m asking for trouble when i said, bring it on, i can still take it.
As much i am frusrated, i still putting my hope in You. I still putting my trust in You. I still believe there is a rainbow after the rain. I still believe there is a light after the tunnel.
Lord, You know me well. Even if i die, i still proudly say I still love You Lord. I know there's a price to be who i am. I know i m not as perfect as i can, having weaknesses and all, but with every breath i have, i live my life to the best that i can.
I m glad i m still alive. i hope i can just move on. thank You for protecting me, i know You havent given up on me.
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
PSALM 23
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