Recently, since it's long stretch of holiday, me and my wife did some spring cleaning in the house and I managed to dig up some of my old notes and stuff.
There were a few stuff I actually regret having. Perhaps, I put a lot of faith and prepared to take the risk. I told myself I will be responsible for it and till today, I take responsible for what I have done. I am not sure how this gonna settle but can only trust God. Meanwhile, I take responsible for decision I made.
Lately I been thinking a lot about things around me. There is a lot of negativity and sometimes I just suck in those vibes, while telling myself things would be better. Well, sometimes there's a price for that and yet no one knows. Honestly, I am disappointed and sadden by a lot of things yet I just keep quiet because of a lot of factors. Some are good factors, some are not.
The thing about me is I don't like telling too many things to people, which is why sometimes people misjudge and misunderstand me. I don't need to tell details about my life and my ministry. I always think the only person I am accountable to is the guy that's up there.
There is so much burden I am carrying and sometimes I am not sure how to share that to people. The reason why I take up the role that I have right now is because I want to see change in the world around me, even though sometimes things are so impossible. If I can start a little fire, why not?
So every now and then, I asked myself, is this burden worth it? I don't know. There's a lot of barriers to break, mindset to change and sacrifices to make. Not many sees it. Everyone only cares about what they have. Very rare some people have asked me what I want or what can they do to help.. often it's more towards can I help them more and give more? That's the struggle I have in me each day, how much can I carry?
Have we asked, what's next for our kids and their friends and their kids and beyond?
This whole question have consumed me every day, every week, every month, every year. I feel like letting go this whole game but sometimes whenever I feel like letting go, I always tell myself, just fight till God says enough.
My motto always been hustle on. Be that positive change.
And this article sums up what I feel.
Anyway, back to my so-called spring cleaning, I saw a piece of paper where actually I planned with a few leaders for Saturday night back in 2013, in terms of direction and what we wanna achieve. We were excited to execute it.. till life have other ideas. I was asked to move to Sabah, so does my ex-boss who was transferred to Thailand. Long story short, those ideas never get to see the light of day... until recently as I went through that plan that I dig up and I realized, man, I actually execute those plans somehow when I came back to KL last year. Surprisingly whatever we planned, somehow God open doors for us to do it. Okay, some ideas didn't hit 100 percent accurate but the ideas and concept were there and we are still in progress.
It's a fine example of God is a faithful God. All we need to do is to be faithful.
It's some reminder that whatever plan God put in me, I should believe someday I will see the light. Somehow. Some ways.
I need that confidence and faith, because sometimes regrets of life can get better of me.
But sometimes God keeps us going on.
Till He says enough, then I will lay down my sword.
Thursday, June 29, 2017
Wednesday, June 28, 2017
Morningwood gig was wonderful. Beautiful music vibes. I enjoyed every single performance.
Humbled by so many kind words from people about my songs. Thank you very much and those comments means a lot to me so I can improve. Yes, I need to up my game then.
Next stop : Playspace LIVE this Sunday. Massive day with monster lineup with the best of the best in local music
Monday, June 26, 2017
I am pumped that next week, I will be sharing the stage with some of the best of the best in local music at Playspace LIVE. I am doing full band again so you gotta come and hear us out. The rehearsals are incredible and looking forward to a fun day out.
Details of the event are at Pacific (AUS) Live in KL
So come come come and join us for an awesome start to July! 😎
Sunday, June 25, 2017
Thanks FB, once again, for your "on this day" function that reminded me a year ago, I was officially licensed as a pastor.
Tbh, the journey haven't been easy. There were challenging times where sometimes I wondered what have I got myself into. Sometimes I disagree with a lot of things that were done, sometimes I asked why I am put in such situations as well.
However, there were grateful times as well where I know God is with me and thankful for a lot of wonderful people that I am surrounded by.
Recently, I am blessed to hear some people shared with me that they are always praying for me. I am really humbled by those encouragement and that ensured me that I am not alone.
Tbh, I am still learning and I told myself, whatever the future holds, as long as God allow me to carry on, I will give my best.
Cheers and let's make life worth while.
Friday, June 23, 2017
More spin-off and sequels are on the way. I am not sure why Hasbro still comes out with more Tf-movie-related toys, they looked terrible. Their other Transformers toy line is way better. Even I think their animated ones are not bad.
Okay, enough of my rant about the franchise.. back to the movie.
Somehow, I find myself enjoying the movie. Okay, honestly I went in without expectation or rather, I thought it's gonna be a disaster but they managed salvage something out of it. I personally rate it better than the terrible 2,3,4. Of course, the first one is still the bomb.
Has its flaws like the continuity editing is terrible. It's like some amateur kid lazily editing some scenes together. It's hard to make sense like how some scenes flow and move.
Besides that, what annoys me is some direction they have for the robots in this franchise...
1) I hated how they slowly turning Optimus Prime into a hot-headed leader. No no, that's not in his system. What happened that wise and calm leader from G1 cartoon? Yea, times changed.
2) (SPOILERS ALERT) He only appears at the beginning and at the end. I am like... what...
3) I know they are trying to sell Bumblebee but I beginning to feel he is meaningless here. Some scenes he looked out of place like what does he need to be there?
4) The new robots that they try to introduce just doesn't resonate with me.
5) Some weapon/droid designs.. erm... I am not sure why they are copying from other franchise (robocop and star wars). It's just plain lazy, a typical B-grade movie habit.
At least, there weren't annoying robots like Skids and Mudflap (from 2nd movie)
Cogman was entertaining somehow. When I first saw him in the trailer, I was annoyed. But somehow he was good. They dropped hint that he is a Headmaster. Well, that's interesting... would they bring in that storyline for next few movies? Only Michael Bay and his writers know.
I did drop hints and used names that any hardcore TF fans would relate to. However, how they are gonna to make sense in the Michael Bay world, well, we can hope it would be a disaster.
Action-wise.. you know Michael Bay, expect explosions, slow-mo and destruction. It's a crazy spectacle but I guess that's what Bay and Transformers (especially) is all about. O yea, the Michael Bay trait in this movie is just too strong.. you will figure it out though..
What probably keep you entertained is the one liner puns or digs.
Overall, it's yet another alien invasion/world at its end-kind of feel but not the best so I will just give it B- for effort. Okay, their so-called writers' session together worked somehow... there's some improvement in the story writing.
Of course, there's a few plot holes which doesn't make sense somehow. Like how can Optimus and Bumblebee can't recognize Lennox?? And this explanation about whereabouts of Sam Witwicky (HUGE SPOILERS) which left me baffled.
While critics probably shelved this as 2017's disaster flick, I wouldn't put it there but I wouldn't put it in the category of the best or great stuff. Probably one of those guilty pleasure stuff. Maybe everyone forgot how terrible was its predecessors were. I cringed at some plots and stories. I only can pick few good moments from those predecessors. Okay, I cringed at some as well in this movie.
But still, please don't ruin my childhood friend any further.
If you all need help, please hired me as scriptwriter.
If it's exam, B minus grade from me or 6.8/10
Wednesday, June 21, 2017
Thanks to GSC for the free birthday ticket and it's one of the movie available to claim, so why not?
I was expecting it to be comedic and yea it was. Just that it's full of adult jokes, which also think about it, not surprising.
Jokes aside, it's just alright movie. I guess the focus is all on the bods etc. To quote some comments I read online, it's Scoody Doo adult version.