Who I am hates who I've been

RELIENT K - WHO I AM HATES WHO I'VE BEEN

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and You might think I'm losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics

Cause I don't want you to know where I am
Cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should've crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

I talk to absolutely no one
Couldn't keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside
Have finally begun to create so much pressure
That I'd soon blow up and

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Sinking up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless I got myself together
I would watch me fall apart

And I can't let that happen again 'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been
This is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
That's exactly where I lost it
See that line
I never should've crossed it
Stop right there I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back

Stop right there
Thats exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should've crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should've said that
It's the very moment that I wish that I could take back

I'm sorry for the person I became
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

Who I am hates who I've been and who I am will take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I've been cause who I've been only ever made me

I'm sorry for the person I became
So sorry that it took so long for me to change
I'm ready to make sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I've been
Who I am hates who I've been

indeed Lord, sometimes who i am hates who I've been but thru the beauty of Your grace, I think it is what that is keeping me alive. I know i been a fool but You still love me and still want to use me. At this point, my life is in Your hands, sometimes i dun understand what You are doing to me, but I know You are faithful. I thank You for speaking to me in various circumstances and affirming me thru afew circumstances. When i signup for Your army, i never ask for anything in return and i know whatever sacrifices i made is nothing compare to what You have done. With that, i will fight the good fight for You, with all i am.